Thursday, 4 May 2017

十年前的我们, 十年后的我们



扎瞎眼,没有想到那么快就十年。 当初我们两也是在2007年的五月入学。遇到对方但不知道命运的安排让我们会在一起。 很快时间跑呀跑呀跑到现在我们两的分开各自走各自的路。 那时的他对我来说一点都不特别。只是一位普通不过的朋友还未称呼的上是好朋友。 只是那个时候没有的选, 我们一堆4个朋友就累计在一起脸书。 我还记得我们四位当中有一位女生。 他爱上了那个女生。 只可惜那个女生喜欢了别人。告白后的他,很伤心就跑来我这里躲。也不知怎么了,看着他真的会日久生情。结果就这样让我爱上了他。 哈哈。 我没想到原来我是可以爱上一个那么不特别的他。但其实想回去,可能就是那么不特别的他让他在我眼里那么的特别。 哈哈。

如果让我说出他有什么那么的特别, 其实那是我不知道。到如今分手了3年, 我还是说不出到底他有什么那么特别到可以喜迎到我对他那么的死心塌地。可能这有点像戏里看到的也听到的, 爱上一个人是不需要原因的。 我们就会麻麻木木地爱上了你生命中的他。 其实我对他说说过, 他不是我的第一个但是事实上他是我的初恋也是我现在的唯一恋情。 一个不特别而特别起来的他。 

其实爱上一个人真的不需要去寻找的。 是你的就会让你碰到面不是你的就不会让你遇见。 当上天让你遇见了那个的他, 不需要任何的原因不需要很特别的他。 你只是需要好好的去珍惜他, 那样他就会在你的生活里特别出来。 这个就是爱的奇迹。 好好珍惜身边你爱的或爱你的那位吧同志们。




















Monday, 17 April 2017

My Status as PLHIV

Well, this is another short movies created by netizen. It is quite meaningful short movie about a gay couple where one of them is PLHIV. I guess many of you do not know what does it means by PLHIV. It is an abbreviation for People Living With HIV. I guess further explanation about this abbreviation is not necessary as the name of it already showing its full meaning.



No doubts, the number of people infected with HIV is increasing even though the increment had been ceased in recent years. The latest statistic report had shown that in 2015, there are roughly 17 millions people infected with HIV. These numbers is those reported cases. There might still people out there that do not know about their status and it is not recorded. 


The increase in the number of infection might purely due to human greed and desire. First among the greed and desire will be drugs and sex. These had been the real factors that contribute to the increment of infection.
Of course, the numbers of infected people might also due to some people out there that selfishly fulfilling their desire and left their status uncheck. These people are the most dangerous and highly infectious. They need to realize their responsibility to the community and stop the spread by knowing their own status.


In Malaysia, the number of people infected with HIV is very high too. Instead, our nation is also known as the concentrated HIV epidemic by the WHO. The first case of HIV reported in Malaysia was in 1986 and
within a duration of 20 years, the number of people infected with HIV had increased to nearly 90000 in 2016.


Being a PLHIV is dreadful. I used to think that it is something that can be accepted easily. It is quite common and sometimes we just got it. Just like a common flu. Sometimes we just got infected and we just have to deal with it. It is rather easy to say but when it comes to reality. It takes a very long and torturing path to make yourself to accept and deal with it. It is even worse to know that your partners, friends and family are leaving you behind when they know about your status. Anyhow, the worse scenario is not knowing your are infected but is the reaction of your closest people. 

We think that it is torturing that we have to accept the truth that we are infected but actually the most torturing person will never be yourself. It is your family members, the one that loves and cares about you. I
used to think that i have a lovely partner but he left very soon when he know about my status. My god-sister that used to be very supportive had refuse to contact me after knowing my status as well. I guess not everyone can accept it so well unless that person really loves you like hell.

For God sake, i have someone. My elder sister who had a hard way to accept my sexuality. She has been and still very supportive about who I am. She never doubt about my sexual preference. Then, i had come up with the news that I am infected. She didnt let me know how sad she was but i know deep down she was hurt badly to know about my status. Yet, she still being very supportive and caring. She didnt left me and that is the person that really cares about me. A person who cares will never leave you and a person who love will drop tears for you. I am very grateful to have a sister who never leave me.

Wednesday, 1 March 2017

其实,你忘了我吗?

一下子,没有察觉到…今年已经是2017年…初恋的那年就是2007年…快要10年了…没有想到,日子过得怎么快。如果我们两还有再一起,今年就会是我们的十周年。可惜,我们没有十周年…

不知不觉,其实你也离开了了我整3年了…从不习惯表麻木…从麻木变没有感觉…一路这样走过…我也开始把你给忘咯…好像没有存在过我的生活里面。

听起来,我好像很残忍但是事实上不是我残忍。你慢慢的不回我信息,不理会我的问候。结果,你也把我给扫除了…我知道你可能不想记得我…你不想记得所发生的一切,但是发生的还是发生了…

我也不想记得当年因为会觉得很可惜…但是那些回忆有了就是有了。我们改变不了…虽然我最近找你,你都没有回我…可能你找到新的女朋友了…可能你不想在理我了…那样就算了吧…我也没办法…